I'm doing this for them to be proud of me...

Ever since I started to study, my parents were always there for me. In all that I do, they were just behind my back ready to support and guide. By seeing that, I always do my best in all ways that I can. I want them to be proud of me. It’s an achievement when you see them very happy that I’m doing well in my studies. As time passed by, there are many changes that happen. I maybe doing well at my studies but those was not enough to make them happy. When they prepare for me to be dependent on my studies, I was not that good enough to top them all though I’m doing all that I can. I was disappointed at my self from then on. I never believe in myself that I have a lot of potentials because I’m afraid to fail. That’s my biggest problem, conquering my fear in showing what I can and what I have. I’m afraid of the criticism of other people, of what they will say about me. I’m too affected with that. Being judge by others who barely know you based on actions. I always try to be what they expected me to be, but sometimes I fail. And it pulls me down. I thought to myself that I have to change into a matured and better person. I always try and try until I succeed on it. I may not be on top but at least I belong to a section whose students take their studies seriously. Luckily, I graduated as an honor student in my elementary days. It may not be that much, but it’s an achievement for me because I graduated. It matters most. In my high school days, I did my best to be in the first section and cope with my classmates whose very intelligent and very hard working. This time, I reach my goal for being an honor student in my first year. But then, something happened in my second year in high school, not only me but almost 75% of our class got a grade we never expected to have in our entire life. It was the worst event that happens to my high school life. That time, I was very disappointed in myself. I feel like I was carrying the world at my back. I almost break down and feel so pity at myself in ways I don’t know. I never meet my parents’ expectation and I almost failed. From then on I promise to myself not to disappoint them in my following years and I do hope I’ll keep that promise as long as I can. I’ll do anything just for them. After I made that promise I hope that they’ll be very much proud of me.